The thing about GOD is when you avail yourself definitely you will be used . He watches the state of the heart of everyone and there are things to do so if you cleanse yourself and be purged you will definitely be used for the benefit of the Kingdom. Ref 2 Timothy 2:21 21 If you keep yourself pure, you will be a special utensil for honorable use. Your life will be clean, and you will be ready for the Master to use you for every good work. 2 Timothy 2:21